Don't You Know Who I Think I Am?

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"Chia-Like, I Shall Grow" - Say Anything

I've watched you all succeed with the highest marks in greed
From my cave, where you're displayed like photographs that bleed
And my teeth grind names into their ivory membranes.
I am hate everlasting with each sickly spell I'm casting.

I discard all feelings.
The stars scar my ceiling.
Sun, I won't spare you. Moon, I won't spare you.

And my pain is mine. It's become my friend with time.
Chia-like, it grows. Watch it fester for my foes.
One day, I'm gonna get up and get right back into the city with my flamethrower mouth.
You bet your life it won't be pretty.

I discard all my feelings.
As the stars still scar my ceiling (oh)
I won't spare you. (Whoa) I, I won't spare you.

Photograph (bath), photograph (bath), photograph
Why'd you have to go and take a picture of a life like that?
You aren't new enough. I give up, I give up, I give up on you.

Look at you (you), look at you (you), look at you (you).
Pretty boy floating face down in a pond of glue.
You aren't new enough. We give up, we give up, we give up on all those like you.

I discard all feelings.
The stars scar my ceiling.
(Whoa) I won't spare you. (Whoa) I, I won't spare you.

(Won't spare you, won't spare you, won't spare you, I won't spare you)
I shall grow and grow...
I'll grow.

June 2007

22 June 2007 @ 10:01 pm

CRUSHcrushCRUSH just got arrested

ehmmmmm. the guy i like (that i shouldn't like because he's the biggest douche in the world) just got arrested...

i'm obv at home minding my own business when i get a call from one of my friends saying: your lover-face, you know, JERRY, just got chased by the cops.

of course, i start busting out laughing.

and now, i'll HAVE to go back to summer school just to see if anyone else knows what he did.

they mentioned him smoking or something...but he was yelling: hey! let's go to the gas station! of course, the cops heard them and caught them.

what loser-faces.

i wish i could hate him, but he's just sooooooooooooooooooooooooo pretty that it pains me to even fathom me disliking his face....or his body....god, i wish you guys could see this boy; you'd die. haha.

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Current Music: RIOT! by paramore

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28 May 2007 @ 11:49 am

sex is obv important

so i've been thinking a lot about sex lately...and no, i'm not thinking about DOING it....i've been thinking about the subject in general and how much people tell us it's bad and to avoid it until we're "ready" and whatnot. here are some observations i've made to suggest that maybe sex is actually more important than our parents let off.

×sex sells. let's not crawl around this; advertising with sexual innuendos have better results than advertising with Christ and 'cleanliness'

×people cheat. some marriages are torn apart because their partner is SLEEPING with somebody else, not because of their annoying habits and things of that nature. obv people are willing to leave their partner for better sex.

×sex makes the world go round. if it didn't exist, we wouldn't. so obv it can't be TOO bad.

×sex ed. it has to be important enough to where they have to teach us about it.

×std's. AIDs is an epidemic, and it's all because of sex.

×prostitution. people apparently want to buy it. you don't see Bibles on the street, or people offering salvation.

×save it for marriage. it's special, so keep your virginity till then. my mother says i should 'try different flavors'...ehm. i think i'll pass. God, let's hope everybody else's mothers aren't like mine.

well, i'll stop before i end up in a back alley with a huge man named 'tiny' that feels i'm absurdly wrong.

now, by no means am i saying teen sex is okay, or sex in general should be taken lightly. it IS very important. i just feel parents need to take a different direction/approach on what and how they tell us about sex. sex plays a extremely large role in almost every aspect of life, and yet they tell us it's not important. wtf is up with that?

Tags: facts, sex sells, std's prostitution, virginity

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Current Music: for a pessimist, i'm pretty optimistic - paramore

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28 May 2007 @ 11:41 am

In it did she drown

inside the hollow room she sits,
journal, door, and nothing more.
so many things wrong with this:
her mind more ugly than the worst of gore.

chicken scratches upon the paper;
words of hate, moreso regret.
her whole life it will take her
to heal herself and all forget.

the second day inside her room.
all alone inside her mind
was spent with Sun and Moon.
both were very kind, both in beauty and thier time.

day eleven, words all done.
all her thoughts all scribbled down.
all these days, words, but one:
forgiveness. in it did she drown.

yeah. so i wrote this a couple of days ago in sixth period. it's not about me, but i'd like to her your opinions and/or interpretations of it.

thanks, SYDNI.||XOD

Tags: in it did she drown, poem

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Current Music: golden skans - klaxons

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25 May 2007 @ 10:31 pm

I'M NOW A JUNIOR/HONORS STUDENT!!

okay, so, today was my last FULL day of my sophomore year. when memorial weekend is over, i shall be sitting in my desk in first period algebra 2 for the very last time to take my final. the rest of the week shall be followed with absurdly long test days and such.

anywho, today, i found out i got accepted to the following honors classes: ENGLISH 11, SPANISH 3, CHEMISTRY, AND US HISTORY. it's going to be a handful, but i think i'm ready for it. so if you have any tips for me, they'd be much appreciated. i'm seriously absurdly proud of myself...i don't know what to do. i really didn't think i was going to get into honors chem... i hear that class is effing crazy. GAHHHHH.

SYDNI.||XOD

Tags: honors

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Current Music: YOUR SONG-MAYDAY PARADE

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15 May 2007 @ 07:12 pm

ATTN: ALL WRITERS/photographers

okay, first off: this is to anyone and everyone on my friends list that is CURRENTLY attending high school.

over summer break, i'll be starting what we call a 'fanzine'. my idea for the name of it is "Written By: Machines". the main focus of this zine will be music and/or music/pop culture. if you have an absurd interest in either of these topics, you are the person i'm looking for. i don't discriminate music types or people and their interests. i hope to make this paper readable to all ages and music genres, and orientations, etc.

the details have yet to be straightened out, but the bottom line is that i need people with some form of writing/photography skills. this is all self-produced which means that all the money that will be put into this project will come from our own pockets. the first volume will be in grayscale (black and white) unless we have a miracle fall upon us and we can fund color copies. [[this may be a bi-weekly production...also depending on funds]]

since this was my idea, i shall be dubbed the 'editor-in-chief.' if i am able to see some of your work and i feel that you are as qualified as i am, i'll give you an editor's position. as i said before, everything is still in the works.

since i'm not sure how many people will reply, each issue will only be one page (either legal size or standard 8x11). if i get enough responses, i'll consider going bigger.

for those who live out of city/state, i will make the pages and send them to you to print for yourselves in your own neighborhoods.

the goal of this project is to get ourselves noticed. that means, that those wishing to become music journalists (or journalists of any sort) in the future, can use this to their advantage and put on his or her resume.

yes, i did mention photographers are needed as well. if you are an avid concert-goer and think you take some bomb pictures, send them to me. i'd be glad to see what you can do with that camera of yours. please make sure that all of your pictures are 1024x768 pixels. basically, make them as big as they can go. :]]

LASTLY, for those of you that just skipped this whole message and felt that the last sentence was most important, you were partially right. i have a couple of ideas that will set our paper apart from anything out there on the scene right now. some are:
×believe it or don't -- i dunno. that just sounded cool.
× indie/unsigned band of the week/month--this will be the focus of every issue.
×controversy--i also don't know. if there is controversy, make sure we cover it.
×random blurbs--kind of like 'did you know that...'
×concert review--pretty self-explanatory, no?
×fan fic/short stories--i think that'd be cool

yes, some of these ideas are lame, but it's just me right now....so if you have any ideas (whether you're interested in writing for this or not), please reply with them. I'D BE HAPPY TO HEAR THEM.

i'm sorry for the absurdly long message.

SYDNI.||XOD

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30 April 2007 @ 08:04 pm

i named the crying monkey!

the facts:
×i'm on the newspaper
×i'm the only sophomore
×there's this kid named JOHN
×he's not really a kid.
×he's 18
×he should be mature
×he's not.
×at all
×harvard accepted him
×he accepted harvard
×he likes singing gym class heroes in class
×really loudly.
×before he knew GCH, he was all, "who sings this song?" [[[cupid's chokehold]]] so haley [[the girl i'm closest with in the class]] goes: "gym class heroes." john: "who? JIM CLAW-SIR-OH'S [[that's how he pronounced it]]?"
×haley and i laughed till our whole body's hurt.
×and hence, i've named my crying monkey: CLASEROS.

yep.

Current Music: LISTEN TO SPINLIGHT CITY.

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11 April 2007 @ 10:03 pm

please go here.

EDIT: for some reason, the picture isn't showing, but the links are fully functional.. just pick any random one..and you'll go where you're intended. THANKS A LOT.

Tags: buzznet, punk goes acoustic 2, the buzzmob

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06 April 2007 @ 10:54 pm

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Tags: buzznet, mob

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05 April 2007 @ 10:40 pm

aim convo with SHANE MARTIN of this providence.

yesterday: i called my bff and she invited me over to spend the night.
i told my dad that..(at least i think i did)...and anyway...so i get to her house, and he's all: what time should i pick you up?
then i go: uhm..how's two o'clock sound??
he: in the morning?
me: ehm. no. in the afternoon, duhhh.
he: you're staying the night?
me: yeahhhh. i thought i told you.
he: i don't think so.
me: yeah. i did..i don't think you were paying attention.
he: well, i have to go in [to work] at midnight..who's gonna watch your sister? if your mother can't pick her up, you're coming back.
me: ehm..
i totally bolted and went inside... then throughout maybe two or three hours, we [my father and i] were calling people to pick my sister up..then finally, my dad calls, and he's all: ehm. your mother isn't answering the phone.
me: THAT SUCKS!! lemme call her..she might pick up for me..
so i call....and she doesn't answer...so now, like half and hour later, we're inside blockbuster..and my dad calls, and says that i could stay the night..

this was actually a bigger deal when it happened..but to be honest, i told really feel like telling a story.

so....yeah.

ANYWAY!!! the highlight of the night was when we went on aim and we [but mainly me] were talking to SHANE MARTIN... this providence's tour manager...he's actually quite nice. i couldn't find him on myspace...but w/e. that's not important... but my friend kept insisting that we were going to get raped because i was talking to a 21-23 year old stranger... and what's stupid was...we weren't even talking about 'sexual' things....we were talking about how i wanted to work for alternative press and how he was leaving for kentucky or something... then he told me how i got to where he was...and how he took risks to get his job..and apparently, he started his own business at 19. i didn't bother to ask what that business was...but yeah.

the WHOLE time...i was getting yelled at for talking to this guy..i can't say i regret it..now i know what i have to do to get where i want to be.

so yeah..sorry for boring you guys..

SYDNI.||XD

ooh..and btw...JACK MARIN left cute is what we aim for...i'd be lying if i said i weren't near tears.

Tags: aim, ciwwaf, jack marin, shane martin, this providence

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Current Music: THE ALMOST and some SPITALFIELD

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01 April 2007 @ 10:49 pm

Just joined the comm.

these full-sizes would be much appreciated. they're all from the same photoshoot.
THANKS, GUYS.
SYDNI.||XD

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01 April 2007 @ 01:23 pm

It's About Friggen Time

Well, it seems that getting a livejournal was just another step in my misinterpretation as an emo kid. I love to write and things, and buzznet just isn't the place to bear my soul; but if you like some good fanfics, then here is the place to go.

In this glorious place, I shall ramble on about the things that matter to me, the things that upset me...and the things that just plain fascinate me. I have a crying monkey...and so do you. The crying monkey is a metaphor for my soul (as it shall be yours, too). You will often hear me refer to it. Yes, it's an 'it'. I haven't come to the point of naming it yet.

I shall begin by stating that the only time MySpace is better than any other place is the fact that it's easier to change the friggen colors. It took me forty-five minutes to figure out what the heck to do with this thing...and still, it's not what I want. It's just a mere point of settling for what I have.

And now, just five minutes later, I must leave to feed the crying monkey.

SYDNI.||XD

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Current Music: Mayday Parade

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